she sings for me.i guess.

This is why I always wonder

I'm a pond full of regrets

I always try to not remember rather than forget

This is why I always whisper

When vagabonds are passing by

I tend to keep myself away from their goodbyes

Tide will rise and fall along the bay

and I'm not going anywhere

I'm not going anywhere

People come and go and walk away

but I'm not going anywhere

I'm not going anywhere

This is why I always whisper

I'm a river with a spell

I like to hear but not to listen,

I like to say but not to tell

This is why I always wonder

There's nothing new under the sun

I won't go anywhere so give my love to everyone

Tide will rise and fall along the bay

and I'm not going anywhere

I'm not going anywhere

People come and go and walk away

but I'm not going anywhere

I'm not going anywhere

-keren ann-

*this song cure my pain..

between the key and the door

a name has gone, maybe it won't coming back for sure,
its my fault, my fault whose always skip every time
this name, will always there, but never for real.
lonely, always feels weirdo, until I'm actually became really alone ...
and twitchy ..



Now I have a new place, a bed, bed that will comforting me..

there is no time for me to hang myself ..

the conversation about the key and the door was over ..
I think you have omitted the key to enter this door
I've already replace the key way ...





am really sorry ...

grateful

i wannaaa jump!!!!! yes!!

alhamdulillaaaaaah! i've got the money for pay that graduation fee!!!

i paid it by myself!! *yelling*

now i gotta go to the bank ..papai..

nb: nanti saja mikirin gimana caranya makan besok sm besoknya lagi

ih.

kamarku super duper berantakan.

bukannya diberesin...malah ditumpuk semuanya. mau dibuang aja..kotor.

sit in the corner of my bedroom..

how to makin' money in 3 days. without performing with the band. geez!!

I can't stop thinking about this ever since i heard about due date. omai... What shud i do rite now...?

me in a complete mess. graduation sucks. am not gonna make it :((

they said me too girly! i don't care!

i can't stop listen to this song!

when somebody loved me

everything was beautiful

every hour we spent together

lives within my heart

and when she was sad

i was there to dry her tears

and when she was ppy so was i

when she loved me

through the summer and the fall

we had each other that was all

just she and i together like it was ment to be

and when she was lonely

i was there to comfort her

and i knew that she loved me

so the years went

by i stayed the same

but she began to drift away

i was left alone

but still i waited for the day

when she'd say i will always love you

lonely and forgotten

i never thought she'd look my way

when she smiled at me

and held me

just like she used to do

like she loved me

when she loved me

when somebody loved me

everything was beautiful

every hour we spent together

lives within my heart

when she loved me.

your physical presence cure my pain. imissmybabyalot! i do! give me back my baby!!!!!!!!

this roller coaster should be stop.

This unhealthy moody moodpecker run again. and it turned me down flat, feels like me gonna throw up.

Less than 24-hours its changed rapidly. great isn't?? what else in the world i could expect besides PEACEFUL MIND, not moronic ones!

PLEASE I'M SICK OF IT. breathe breathe..huff huff...

me sick of worrying.

whatever, i don't mind if u called this as mad cow, crazy dog, or even swine grunting attack!!DOH.

And the lesson i've learn to cure THIS SYMPTOMS is pretty ridiculous :

'revenge as hell'. wakwaw!

the truth is, i would do the same thing that people done with me..

This is notty if somebody doing something bad, but it works on me. exactly.. omaaaai!!

I might called this is fun repetition until some point you've had enough of it, it taste bitter, and the next day you know you just want to do it again if people treat u nicely! *kooky it is, isn't?*

so act nice please. then i revenge u with a lot of kissous.

woof.

this is a new chapter, isn't it??????

yess you

yeah you.

dear you.

I'm back from a cave-trip with even lovable friends.

spending up of my spare-time and hopefully getting my mood up and running again perfectly.


heart.

this what i called

blessing in disguise..

yesterday i've had a work interview in some magazine company. interview started on 14.00 and before i get there. There's a huge rain and thunderclap everywhere. Scary!

and too bad, AM GETTING WET! omaigod. even so, I still went to that office, with all my clothes waterlogged. doh!

and the office temperature just good. *good here's mean no good at all* it was very very very very frosty. goddamn-it freezing.

and the interview was failed since the weather ruined my mood....argh.

yeah it doesn't make any difference thou, at least i've got so many spare time for play. or perhaps i shud go traveling.

i promised myself there's no no no miserable time on this out-of-work minded.

apparently my brain still work for something ridiculous. oh no. Hell no. Enough for this non-sense.

lets play.

my best friend's wedding :)

meet Anisha Katarima & Ferry Rotinsulu...our newly weds.

she's one of my besties since were on high school...oh dear look at you now..with ur pretty crown..with white rose on ur hand..congratulations dear. Hope both of will be together...till u starts to forget one's name. Amen.

And suddenly the party become like me reunion with fellas. LOVE IT!!

geez we're just like a mommy with one baby. LOL.

enjoy it!!

(left - right) Kezia, Tika, Me, Chitra, Indah (oh, she look beautiful that nite!)

actually i don't like my hair, its too high.. up up up awaaaay! :D

but i totally in love with the outfit*woof it*

Forever and forever we'll be so far from blue
I just want a happy life and live it all with you...

that.

kok tidak pernah merasa sekecil ini....

saya amat sangat sedih. oke saya serius.

saya kamu dia mereka kita kurang bersyukur mungkin. ah u deserves more than.....

its funny to hear that

me stress..

LOL..

I laugh at myself so hard

till I can't breath.

Then I stop laughing

until the doctor gave me

asabium clobazam 10mg

gee,,i am

kinda confuse

recently i gave myself bad analysis on every situation. crap!

too many thoughts behind those smirky faces..

c'mon I'm okay here..

careless

gee..i'm careless..

totally careless..

i don't care bout myself nor others....

ummm..

one single world...and you ruin everything....

hiatus.

its been along time since the last post..

welcome back :)

lately I've been pretty nerves about my final project. damm...I only got 2 weeks, wish me luck :)

daaaaaamm I still do blogging...FOOL.

just miss it.

hey where are u??

i am lost..for a while *evilsmirk*

don't presume to judge other. but I did it!!

do you all even bother to read/hear what people write/say before shooting off a reply?

please don't speak up anything crummy at me. I don't need you to take pity on me because I don't need one, and if I do, I don't need yours, 'cause I'm not helpless. Even I know 'since when is pity a bad thing?'. 

I am perfectly fine here. It just my body,which is doesn't.

*I respect all of you, but not like this,please* 

ROFL

uhuk uhuk. threw up. let me think about it after thursday.okay.

*wishes thursday soon to come!*

****

"sometimes the last thing you want comes in first, sometimes the first thing you want never come"

randomness on my brain.

Have you ever thought that someone is 'the one' but then he/she just left you by?

Have you ever felt silly?

Have you ever wondered why the shape of the world is round?

Have you ever felt miserable?

Have you ever thought why life is so amazed even sometimes its complicated?

Have you ever missed the person you once talked to?

Have you ever felt crap and the only thing you could do is just sit down.just sit?

Have you ever wondered why Lalala Land couldn't be reach by pigheaded?

Have you ever wanted something so much but it seemed fuc**n impossible for you to have it?

Have you ever answered no to a question when your heart was actually saying yes?

Have you ever continuously asked why my body isn't that good?

Have you ever crushed a person by just looked at their picture?

Have you ever worked so hard, but was disappointed in the end?

Have you ever cried because one of your pet is die?

Have you ever continuously thought so much while actually you don't have to be?

Have you ever hated someone so bad?

Have you ever wondered why love is exist?

yes.yes.yes.yes.yes.yes.yes..

and so on.

!@#$%^&*

roses are red, violets are blue, my eyes becoming red, its because of you!!

*crap!!!!!!!!!!!!*

early in the morning..

can't sleep...

open eyes widely...

my final task is disaster. I'm stuck...

take a rest..blog-walking...find these and  TADAAA!!, here's the result :

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

creepy!!

if only.i knew it before.

i'm  gonna kill someone! argh!