beruangmakangajah: November 2010

29.11.10

write it.

I HAVE FEELINGS TOO,

I AM STILL HUMAN

ALL I WANT IS TO BE LOVED,

FOR MYSELF AND FOR MY TALENT

-Marilyn Monroe-

A WISE GIRL KISSES BUT DOESN'T LOVE,

LISTEN BUT DOESN'T BELIEVE

AND LEAVES BEFORE SHE IS LEFT

-Marilyn Monroe-

when quoting is easier.

28.11.10

cut your hair.

not your hand nor your heart. please.

I've had so much fun this week, hideaway, new hair, new pals, and a lovely weekend with my besties. alhamdulillah :)

26.11.10

overrated

stop it.

your drama is pretty irritating.

lets get another story to read.

I almost love this place.

the city light.

almost.

23.11.10

dasar. sekolah dasar. dasal kamuh.

suka fotonya :) (photo courtesy of Qisthas)

Mungkin gak yang kita cari sama?? Gak mungkin yah? "Dasal kamuh!"

kamu sabun, sembarangan, gamau ngalah, geblek, (lagi-lagi) sabun.

....

tapi aku seneng.

Meskipun konteks seneng (itu) gak harus kaya keadaan dulu.

lalu?

......

(Muka datar, tidak bergeming, kunyah-kunyah sugus)

hahahahaha, dasal kamuh! habis ini kita nonton film apalagi?? *smokescreen*

Seberapa jauh perbedaan kita dalam memandang hidup..

kamu lewat lensa otak normal hidup sukses-mu, aku lewat lensa bodoh2an tanpa henti-ku..

(Lagi-lagi) aku iri.. Dasal kamuh!!

....

Yah, masi ada movie marathon setiap bulannya,

masi ada kumpul rame-rame,

masi ada sushi yang bisa dimakan,

apa ada sugus yang entah kemana rimbanya??

....

kita (bisa) ketemu, duduk lebih lama.

Bicara tentang hal-hal yang berbeda, dan bersyukur atas apa yang ada.

Kita terus bersyukur ya, gaboleh berhenti. Kita ini cukup beruntung, bisa nonton film setiap ada film baru *gapenting ya*, bisa komunikasi non-verbal lewat benda yang judulnya 'smartphone' yang konon harganya mahal *emang mahal nyeng!!*, di sebuah kota yang kelewat amburadul-macetnya kaya setan-bakalan banjir, untuk terus ada buat sabun-isasi satu sama lain :)

kamu jangan marah ya sama kata2 aku diatas, *eh tapi gpp deh marah, penasaran, ayo marah*

Untuk bersikap bodo amat, biasa saja. Rasanya butuh waktu :)

dasal kamuh!

21.11.10

clumsy me.

let me tell you,

Nov 20, 2010 09:44: @doozlederry: Never good with wrap up a gift.

but i've made it. yeeeaaay!

THEN SUDDENLY....

Nov 21, 2010 00:03 : @doozlederry: Beneran kebalik nih otaknya. Kadonya ud kebungkus. Tiba2 kepikiran 'isinya udah gw masukin belom yah?!' #fail http://plixi.com/p/58084509

anti bodoh.

14.11.10

I'm no fast-learner :)

image from here

I was an impulsive person, just like any of average women I behave with my hearts not my logic brain and sometimes i look back and says: What the hell was i thinking???? the object can be anything, a pair of shoes, a new comic book, or just some guys i felt head over heel for. I need something that balanced me out.

Here it comes my ex-bf but change into my bestfriend again (aren't we? doh! skip it :p), someone whose opinion I respect, he got me thinking that every decision has an effect, every single thing happened for a reason, bad and good; and no matter how we justifies it there will always be a downside after all. We can't change the problem, its basically given, but the way how we solve it and the solution remains a big question. Most of the time, we don't even know what our problem is, trying to solve by itself alone.

Life is an equation, complicated at the same time, and some time the function can be anything. There are many variables of life, also have different specified weight of effect from doing something, or etc. *see am getting dizzy with my own words*.

Turns out, he is quite right. From emotional side, there is a solution to every problem. We might deny it, not liking it, even regret about it, but that's happening, everything work on its way, naturally.

Last night, on our chitchat time, I told him how worried I am about my financial stuff. Since I'm not manage my money well *just mention that I was impulsive? okay I was*. And he's quite good with his futurist financial solution mind. Guess what, he said he just read all that financial-things from his twitter timeline, he learn from social network, (again) I felt so ashamed of myself for using my tweet just for fun. well yeah I'm not an informer, kinda me-former here :). Back to the story, so he gave me a few link, and trust me, its so confusing for read all of that "number", since I'm not a fast-learner :D. And this link for me it is awesome. I love it.

About that thing called "Servomechanism", an automatic device that uses error-sensing negative feedback to correct the performance of a mechanism. But the author of that blog used that word to explain how our brain can control our financial stuff. Just same like the phrase, practice makes perfect. The more you practice, the more you are familiar with the drill. Once you got to the real test, you feel more relaxed and confident, because you know what to expect. Its nice, explain a complicated economic-financial-whatever it called, but in a simple way.

Start with the most important, something that I need. Something compulsory and cant be substituted, define clearly, between what it is that I want, and what it is that I need. I should fix my expenses, really :D.

So after our conversation last night, I pop-out with this thought; problems in life are just the same thing like Servomechanism-word : “take that as a practice, you’ll now what to expect for the next one later”.

have a great day :)