alone at last.

"you dont need human relationships to be happy, God has placed it all around us" - Christopher McCandless

shades of grey.

FORGET ME NOT....

i tell you.

taken from here

you will be remain as secret :)

monolog yah?

iyah :) #random

masihkah kamu ada di jendela?

taken from weheartit

begitu sulitnya memberi sejumput percaya atas apa yang kamu yakini itu adanya.

untuk bicara (sedikit) saja, bibirnya kelu, hening seketika, ia tak bergeming, ia padam, memilih lenyap.

Feb 7, 2011 19:57 @doozlederry: Namanya Hujan, ia terlihat dari sudut jendelamu, ia gagu atau ia bisu? Padahal selalu selipkan kata cinta disetiap tetesnya.. #random

Feb 7, 2011 20:00 @doozlederry: Hujan pun mereda, tapi lihat, tetesnya tetap ada dijendelamu. #random

ketika hujan mereda, (cint)aku tak mereda.

little thing.

if feelings were pictures, then

i'd love to feel like this everyday.

(image by ポール)

here it goes.

opening your heart is not a simple task to do.

being open, after all, means being available, exposed, free.

*free to discover joy and love, yet, free to face all of those fear or pain or even rejection*

open = a giant risk.

but the closed one, for me, is an even big big big BIG risk.

so many stuff on my head rite now, which has become like one massive oh-this-is-my-own-adventure book,

the thing is i can't cheat by opening the back page or just the good plot.

Such as job story, love story, move here, move there, chance for travel from one city to another, opportunities that come and go, etc.

and i (still) stand in that place, for being skeptical. think about every option, wondering,

whether i could possibly have the power to rebuild my sandcastle again.

the point is, i've been there before. same situation. i've faced choices, and (sometimes) made the wrong one.

I mean, opened our hearts to new people, new places and new opportunities only to be hurt or disappointed or refused.

so open doesn't feel that easy.

In fact, it feels absolutely terrifying.

the pic taken from here

ordinary.

no glasses. no contact lenses. blurry.

all i can see is red, white, and yellow.

i love the city road tonight. something unusual. for my eyes.

and just 'wayne brady - ordinary' song played on and on..

like my friend ever said "sunday mor(o)ning"

can you live by getting 2-3 hours of sleep a night?? awful instead of awesome. *krik*

then woke up just because you've had a bad dream.

GAAAAAH! how could that happen to me?!

drowning. swimming pool. can't breath. what a dream.

too much think. too much plan. too much 'dream'. too much phony-baloney stuff, blah blah blah, and so on, before sleep. and when i woke up. why?

i guess i have to stop asking myself why.

(again) standing between those line. am i?

i wish for a moment that i could push that pause button. and still drowning.

daytime mind.

menyempurnakan setengah dari agama.

sebuah wacana hebat, dengan pola pikir tergesa-gesa.

Tuhan, jadikan saya orang yang sabar. Amin.

like i used to

"i want to be strong"

is it too much? yeah keep dreaming :)

via tinymind

pikir sendiri

belajar itu bisa dimana dan kapan saja..

sekolahan.

kampus.

rumah.

internet.

temen.

tapi paling enak kalo belajar dari pengalaman diri sendiri....

lama nyambungnya..tapi sekali "ngeh" pasti ga bakalan lupa.

check this one!

i've found it interesting..

"kenapa Tuhan bikin segala sesuatu itu berbeda-beda, pdhal dy bisa bikin semuanya sama???"

01:24

still awake...

just a little girl who denies to grow up..

she don't wanna move..

hide.

hide in a safe place, where no one can't reach her..

believe me, no one, even herself!

any possibilities would be great... but then think again...

maybe..?

perhaps...?

could be...?

whatever!

are we gonna swallow our pride sooner or what???!

only time know how...

sebuah pemikiran yang didapat berdasarkan pengalaman

.manusia itu terbatas kapasitasny.

me

fact bout me..

1.saat ini sedang tergila2 dengan hujan...

2.berobsesi untuk membuat badannya seperti papan, tpi yang kenyataannya terlihat seperti beruang..*argh!

3.ketika sdg kesal, atau emosi tingkat akut, maka seluruh badan akan terasa gatal dan merah2...

4.saya adalah orang yg gampang terharu a.k.a cengeng...even for simple and silly things

5. saya senang bernyanyi, tpi pda saat didepan umum, saya tidak sebebas ketika saya bernyanyi di kmar mndi...:p

6.saya sadar saya tidak bisa diam....*mulut saya tepatnya, dy akan terus berceloteh maupun mengunyah makanan...sigh!! -_-

7.i don't drink soda..thats why i miss 7up taste so bad!

8.I am a real drama queen,,yeah whatever..*start to realize that this isn't gud for me nor others.

9.masi berusaha jadi orang yang sabar, dmna sbnrnya saya bnar2 ingin jadi orang yang egois..

10.Masi beranggapan bahwa dunia itu tidak adil..*maap Tuhan..

mesej for heart

"mama papa adek sayang sama mbak..."

cm bisa ngangguk, smbil nangis krna merasa bersalah..

okay

everything will be okay

at the end.

if it's not okay

it's not the end.

(unknown)