little thing.

if feelings were pictures, then

i'd love to feel like this everyday.

(image by ポール)

here it goes.

opening your heart is not a simple task to do.

being open, after all, means being available, exposed, free.

*free to discover joy and love, yet, free to face all of those fear or pain or even rejection*

open = a giant risk.

but the closed one, for me, is an even big big big BIG risk.

so many stuff on my head rite now, which has become like one massive oh-this-is-my-own-adventure book,

the thing is i can't cheat by opening the back page or just the good plot.

Such as job story, love story, move here, move there, chance for travel from one city to another, opportunities that come and go, etc.

and i (still) stand in that place, for being skeptical. think about every option, wondering,

whether i could possibly have the power to rebuild my sandcastle again.

the point is, i've been there before. same situation. i've faced choices, and (sometimes) made the wrong one.

I mean, opened our hearts to new people, new places and new opportunities only to be hurt or disappointed or refused.

so open doesn't feel that easy.

In fact, it feels absolutely terrifying.

the pic taken from here

roller coaster ride

one of my former housemate, Desi, tied the knot this morning. yeeay happy for you both.

and *drum roll*

this happi happu mood suddenly changed into oh-so-wacky mood.

I don't know who to talk to, it's just way to unimportant for me to share, I guess, but it piss me off.

being nice or friendly or whatever it called, sometimes causes me into some trouble. DAMN!

R stands for...

pic was taken in february 2009

and suddenly wanna give a huge blessing in the morning for you. yes you.

courtesy of tumblr.

r.e.m.i.n.i.s.c.i.n.g.

doh.

what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next.

am dying for it.

out of town? please..

here comes the stuff that I shouldn't envy for..

but i did it. after all my vow.

DOH!

being honest.

people's opinion is getting very very irritating this time.

*insecure attack*

where to run??

nowhere close.

:)

2011

from now on, everyday will be the most important day

happy new year :)