hello (not) goodbye.

miss this place.

miss the feeling.

hello, I'm back :)

alone at last.

"you dont need human relationships to be happy, God has placed it all around us" - Christopher McCandless

shades of grey.

FORGET ME NOT....

sore sederhana

siang itu panas. butuh penyegaran. seketika beranjak menuju salah satu pusat 'riweuh'nya ibukota.

menikmati churros bersama. bercerita melepas rindunya.

sebegitukah sibuknya kita?

berlanjut ke frappuccino hijau. orang yang berbeda.

lucu.

kita tampak larut di cerita kita.

berpindah tempat ke 'gudang inspirasi', tur keliling zona merah, saya bak bocah yang girang diajak keliling pantry restoran cepat saji, baca majalah, baca topeng kaca.

kemudian kita kembali ketempat yg sama.

lucu.

yang kita lihat hanya merahnya senja dan eskalator. disuatu sore sederhana :)

your hand

it had been a long time since she held someone's hand.

she wondered if she had forgotten what it feels like.

she forget.

well you may say that she knew what was happening, but she just couldn't figure out what she supposed to do.

and she starts to laugh again. like she used to be. she gave up.

she turn around her way. she began to sing.

'what am i doing?'

i tell you.

taken from here

you will be remain as secret :)

don't ask.

not move.

but just put another heart on this site :

here!!

not done yet, but I'm quite excited on this another daily routine. HOP!

monolog yah?

iyah :) #random

masihkah kamu ada di jendela?

taken from weheartit

begitu sulitnya memberi sejumput percaya atas apa yang kamu yakini itu adanya.

untuk bicara (sedikit) saja, bibirnya kelu, hening seketika, ia tak bergeming, ia padam, memilih lenyap.

Feb 7, 2011 19:57 @doozlederry: Namanya Hujan, ia terlihat dari sudut jendelamu, ia gagu atau ia bisu? Padahal selalu selipkan kata cinta disetiap tetesnya.. #random

Feb 7, 2011 20:00 @doozlederry: Hujan pun mereda, tapi lihat, tetesnya tetap ada dijendelamu. #random

ketika hujan mereda, (cint)aku tak mereda.

little thing.

if feelings were pictures, then

i'd love to feel like this everyday.

(image by ポール)

here it goes.

opening your heart is not a simple task to do.

being open, after all, means being available, exposed, free.

*free to discover joy and love, yet, free to face all of those fear or pain or even rejection*

open = a giant risk.

but the closed one, for me, is an even big big big BIG risk.

so many stuff on my head rite now, which has become like one massive oh-this-is-my-own-adventure book,

the thing is i can't cheat by opening the back page or just the good plot.

Such as job story, love story, move here, move there, chance for travel from one city to another, opportunities that come and go, etc.

and i (still) stand in that place, for being skeptical. think about every option, wondering,

whether i could possibly have the power to rebuild my sandcastle again.

the point is, i've been there before. same situation. i've faced choices, and (sometimes) made the wrong one.

I mean, opened our hearts to new people, new places and new opportunities only to be hurt or disappointed or refused.

so open doesn't feel that easy.

In fact, it feels absolutely terrifying.

the pic taken from here

roller coaster ride

one of my former housemate, Desi, tied the knot this morning. yeeay happy for you both.

and *drum roll*

this happi happu mood suddenly changed into oh-so-wacky mood.

I don't know who to talk to, it's just way to unimportant for me to share, I guess, but it piss me off.

being nice or friendly or whatever it called, sometimes causes me into some trouble. DAMN!

R stands for...

pic was taken in february 2009

and suddenly wanna give a huge blessing in the morning for you. yes you.

courtesy of tumblr.

r.e.m.i.n.i.s.c.i.n.g.

doh.

what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next. what's next.

am dying for it.

out of town? please..

here comes the stuff that I shouldn't envy for..

but i did it. after all my vow.

DOH!

being honest.

people's opinion is getting very very irritating this time.

*insecure attack*

where to run??

nowhere close.

:)

2011

from now on, everyday will be the most important day

happy new year :)

devastated

so that my crappy wednesday.

start from catch myself peeking back at some memories. good and bad. time swirl this times.

burst into tears for stupid yet simple but unimportant stuff. hoooly moly!!

spoke to mum in the morning and turns out i've got another rejection for going out of this city soon. she told me that my reason is ridiculous.

broken headset = brokenhearted (blah!!)

oh how i hate today.

and in a flash. they're gone.

that means. lets get out of my so-called-drama things.

get out from this box. run.

write it.

I HAVE FEELINGS TOO,

I AM STILL HUMAN

ALL I WANT IS TO BE LOVED,

FOR MYSELF AND FOR MY TALENT

-Marilyn Monroe-

A WISE GIRL KISSES BUT DOESN'T LOVE,

LISTEN BUT DOESN'T BELIEVE

AND LEAVES BEFORE SHE IS LEFT

-Marilyn Monroe-

when quoting is easier.